from one prayer to waking up

26 11 2008

So, this is my random post/thought for the day… week… month. Anyway, it struck me, after looking back over my post for the past several months, that there is a bit of a trend to my journal postings. Other than the obvious discussion about family, one distinct part of my post has been about “faith” and “reaching out.”

I never really intended for this blog to be solely about my faith walk, but that seems to be the theme these days, so I am going with it.  It just feels like I am in a unique time in my life where for the first time I am actually trying to listen.  I am trying to read for understanding rather than reading to read.  I am trying to reach out – not just through my united way payroll deductions and small donations, but in individual ways.  I am trying to be more open about my faith, where before I was quieter about it.  Have I succeed all of the time? Nope – not even close.  Have I tried every day? Again – nope, not even close.  It is a struggle, but an exciting one none-the-less.

So with that said, I have two thoughts today.  One a prayer I am saying today, and the other is about waking up.

Part I – the prayer:

I pray that God works on those hearts that surround me in His time and in His way.  I pray that my faith never falters.  I pray for the strength to continue to pray consistently…to pray daily…to pray passionately.  I pray for the strength to be an example for my family. I pray that God provides me with the strength and words I need when an opportunity arises to help another.  I pray that I listen to God when He prompts me.

Part II – waking up:

I have been thinking through this thought off and on for a while now.  Basically it is as followings:  I read once that there are times when God allows us to see what He sees – if we are only willing.  To say what He has places in our heart – if we are only willing.  To follow the path that He has set for us – if we are only willing. 

As I see it, we are all droplets in other people’s lives.  We all touch people throughout the day in small ways, and in some cases large ways.  There are times when God uses these small touches to impact our lives.  There are so many people I can point to that God has used to allow me to actually see what is going on around me with a more compassionate eye.  There are people in my life that have impacted me with their words – both written and verbal.  With the help of these people, I hope I am waking up and seeing what I am suppose to see…saying what I am suppose to say… and following the path I am suppose to follow.

Thanks for reading this rambling series of words, and as always comments are always welcome.





Eyes of the world

20 11 2008

eyes

The thing about eyes is – if you look close enough into another person’s eyes you can actually see what they see… you.  I saw this picture the other day and thought (after blowing it up) … I can see what this boy saw.  I can see a person in a red shirt taking a picture, a little yellow bug, and a house with a porch.  I can see a blue sky.  I can see the beginning of a story.  

I don’t know why this struck me, but it does make me wonder what I would see if I looked closely enough in another person’s eyes.  That person might be someone who needs my financial help, my emotional help, or my spiritual help.  They might need a prayer.  They might just need an outstretched hand.

Would I see in their eyes an extended hand, or would I see just the shell of me walking by?

To take it a step further, would God see just a reflection or would He see something more?  

I struggle with this thought from time to time. I hope that God sees something more than just a shell. I pray that I am extending my hand when needed.  I pray that I don’t walk by.

What about you?





okay…so this is a little old but the feelings are the same….

13 11 2008

 Our 10 years

10 seconds, 10 minutes, 10 hours, 10 days, 10 years.

  

Dearest,

On this, our 10th anniversary, I decided to try to put into words what our decade has meant to me.

This was, in some ways, the easiest thing to do and in others the hardest. So much has changed for us. We have grown so much. Our life together started while I was out with my friends and I came across a beautiful woman. I knew even then that you were a very special woman. Who would have thought that stepping on a shoe would have ended in a marriage that has grown into more than my heart could have imagined. Little did I realize when I stepped on your shoe that it would also come to mean that we would step into a lifetime of memories. Life only became better for me when you answered my dreams and said YES to the words “Will you marry me?” It was at that moment I knew we would become (or should I say we became), in my eyes, the perfect couple. Now that we have been together for 10 years, I must say that it has been a life of love and wonder.

10 seconds, 10 minutes, 10 hours, 10 days, 10 years. When I am around you, all of these specific moments in time seem to roll together. I know that they are different, at least according to the calendar. However, in my heart, they are one. You see, I have been lucky enough to steal billions of 10 second glances, to hear millions of 10 minute conversations, to feel thousands of 10 hour embraces, to enjoy hundreds of 10 continually cycling days, and to live one 10 year of love and wonder. 10 seconds, 10 minutes, 10 hours, 10 days, 10 years, what better way to explain our life together.

10 seconds:

I have stolen billions of 10 second glances. Glances that make me smile ever time. There are the 10 second glances when I look at you while you sleep and think how lucky I am. There are the 10 second glances when I look at you when we are sitting by each other in the car, at the movies, on a plane, in our bed, on a beach. There are 10 second glances while we were standing beside a baby crib newly filled, looking at our first house through the newly framed walls, looking at your face during our wedding, looking at your face over and over again in the photo albums that I pull out when you are asleep. There are the 10 second glances when we are dancing cheek to cheek, and laying side by side. My 10 second glances started when I stepped on your shoe, and they have never stopped. They may only be a fraction of time, but they add up to billions of memories. They are part of the minutes of our lives.

10 minutes:

I have heard millions of 10-minute conversations. Conversations that allowed me to melt into your hand at one moment, and laugh in another. There have been the 10 minute conversations while we walked around the Plaza, the KU campus, and our neighborhood. The 10 minute conversations on Massachusetts’s beaches and walks to Mystic. The 10 minute conversations that have touched on our past, our present and our future. The 10 minute conversations about retiring early and living forever, about little girl pony tails and big girl dreams. 10 minute conversations about our joys and aspirations, our needs and wants, and our gratefulness. Conversations about my gratefulness that you are part of my life. These, and so many others, make up the millions of 10 minute conversations that caused us to grow stronger, and more in love every day. They are part of the hours of our lives.

10 hours:

I have felt thousands of 10 hour embraces. 10 hour embraces that started before our wedding, through our wedding, and into our lives. 10 hour embraces when I wanted to hold you because the wind was to cold, and times when I just “wanted” to hold you. 10 hour embraces that remind me of the words “Well darling.” 10 hour embraces before bedtime, on our honeymoon, our vacations. Our 10 hour embraces after Monica was born, and then again after Priya. 10 hours of embraces that not only make me think of the past, but make me look forward to our future. We may have had a thousand 10 hour embraces, but I look forward to the thousands more. They are part of the days of our lives.

10 days:

I have enjoyed hundreds of 10 continually cycling days. 10 continually cycling, ever moving, ever changing, ever entertaining days. There have been constant adjustments, and constant pleasures. There have been 10 continually cycling days that have included times that we have been walking tall, to crawling out of bedrooms in fear that our little one will wake up. There have been 10 continually cycling days where time has stood still because of a snow storm that lasted forever, to weekends that disappear as soon as they start, to trips to see family and friends, to evenings snuggled up beside each other hoping to have a quiet night. We have enjoyed hundreds of days. Hundreds of 10 days that are continually cycling. They are part of the years of our lives.

10 years:

We have lived one 10 year of love of wonder. The past ten years has brought a flood of memories that include the following in no particular order; Jimmy’s Jigger, wedding days times three (don’t forget Hawaii), 1-4-3 and 7-3-6, our honeymoon, anniversary time and Bed & Breakfast, our quick one ringers to say, “I Love You,” Hershey bars on windshields, our little girls, Christmas tree ornaments, Townhouses, Connecticut snow storms, holding hands, quick kisses, a Mazda truck at a rodeo, a Mazda car in a hurricane, moving and relocating, moving and growing, new years and new things, my graduation, many birthdays, MU-KU basketball games, glances, conversations, and embraces. 10 beautiful years of love and wonder. This is our life.

Every day since October 12, 1990, we have shared the seconds, the minutes, the hours and days that formed our lives. We have shared 10 years of love. Over the past few weeks, I have looked at all of these moments. I have cried. I have laughed. I have smiled. I have dreamed. I still see myself as that young kid that stepped on a beautiful girl’s shoes, but now I also see myself as a husband to a very special wife. If our future is even a tenth of what our past has been, then I cannot wait for the next 100 years.

10 seconds, 10 minutes, 10 hours, 10 days, 10 years. For me, it is all in the perception of time. The calendar tells me there have been 3650 days since we have been married, but my heart tells me there has only been one moment, our life together.

I love you.

Michael





Memo from God

7 11 2008

Came across this in an email from my mom… it touched my heart, so I passed it along.  It touched that person’s heart, so I passed it along again.  It touched that person’s heart, so I passed it along again.  Since this email seems to impact so quickly, I figured I would post this today.

 

MEMO 

 

To:               YOU
Date:            TODAY
From:           GOD
Subject:       YOURSELF
Reference:   LIFE

This is God.  Today I will be handling All of your problems for you.  I do NOT need your help. 

 
So, have a nice day.


I love you.

P.S.  And, just a gentle remember... If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do NOT attempt to resolve it yourself!  Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. I will get to it in MY time.  All situations will be resolved, but in MY time, not yours.  

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it.  Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.

Should you decide to send this to a friend; Thank you.

 
You may have touched their life in ways you will never know!

Now, you have a nice day.
                         
God





Praying today…

5 11 2008

Praying today for alot of hurting people.  If you are one, please let me know.  I have heard from the following:

LD – future

JB – future

MM – future

MJ – strength, patients, health, family

B & VJ – health

KH – health

Happy to include you… just let me know.





Pray always

1 11 2008

Pray always. (1 Thes. 5,17) Short verse… but worth repeating – daily, hourly, every minute.  I slip so often in my daily, weekly, monthly prayer life. 

 

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (1 Thes. 5:16-18)

 

I came across this today… I am not really sure… but here it is.  A reminder, if nothing else, for me.

 

Take care.