Dear God

20 02 2009

In case you don’t know this, there was a movie from 1996 titled, “Dear God.”  It was on HBO tonight, and it kinda struck me in a way that woke a couple of pieces in me up. 

First the movie: The main character, Tom Turner is a con man who gets arrested, and basically has to decide if he is going to jail or he is going to get a real job.  He chooses a real job, and starts working for the post office in the dead letter office – you know the dear Santa letters, the undeliverable letters.  And in this case the Dear God letters.  Well, some of the starts to get opened after curiosity gets the better of him.  Then he accidentally answers one by sending his first paycheck that he cashed to someone who needed the money, and this starts the ball rolling as more of his co-workers and the community start to help people by answering “God’s” mail.

That is where the movie got me.  I mean, isn’t that what Jesus wanted us to do – love others and help others?  Isn’t that what the Big C church is all about – loving and helping?  Isn’t that what Tom was doing – albeit by accident at first?  Wouldn’t it be so cool if the whole church would act on those urges inside them and actually stop and help?  Wouldn’t it be cool if I did that more?  Wouldn’t it be cool if I listen to Him better?  Wouldn’t it be cool if I didn’t allow my personal desire for x…y… and z… to overtake my life?

I have asked this question before, but aren’t there those times when you feel God working in and around you?  But in my case it feels like there are more times when He is actually trying to wake me up.  There are those times when He yells at me … something like – MICHAEL…can you give me a hand here?

Now, my analytical mind cannot fully comprehend what God is doing.  Nor do I think I will ever fully understand.  It isn’t my place.  I will say that God has shown up in my life at times when I wish he would – especially last year when my dad got cancer.  There are also times during my life time when He has shown up in my life when, quite honestly, when I wish He wouldn’t have (at least at the time.) In hindsight, I am glad he did, but at the time I was like – oh come on… why now?  Lately I have tried to listen.  Lately I listened as closely as possible. 

So with that, I will say that He has once again shown up and said –

“MICHAEL… can you give me a hand?”

to which I have replied… “Oh come on… now?”

pause…pause…pause… yes God is patient…

Okay…





The battle is not mine…

13 02 2009

“This is what the LORD says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s.’ 2 Chronicles 20:15′”

My mind has been running lately… not sure why, but this is where it landed.





Stumbling along

12 02 2009

Do you ever have one of those weeks where you just want to yell.  When you just want to say ugh.  I feel like I have two things going on in my life – family life and spiritual life.  They are at war sometimes.  Those that know me, know why.  So, with that said,  I humbly ask for your prayers for they are needed … I need your prayers of encouragement… I need to remember why I wrote these words about my walk in faith.  I need to remember the feelings that came along with them.  They are a work in progress just like me…

 

I really can’t begin to know

Why I am surprised to feel Your love flow

When everything in my life makes no sense

It is Your love that gives me hope

It is Your love that lights my soul

It is Your love that pays my toll.

 

I really can’t begin to know

Why I am surprised to feel Your love flow

Not when You have given us all a second chance

To see the hope where others see despair

To see the strength amongst the meek

To see the courage amidst my fear.

 

I really can’t begin to know

Why I am surprised to feel Your love flow

Not when every time I turn around

I can feel Your loving grace,

I can feel Your arms embrace.

I can feel the changes made.

 

And when I finally stop to bow my head

it is Your heart that touches me.

it is Your words that calm me.

it is Your love that blows away my storm.

it is Your strength that embraces me.

it is You that carries me through.