Keep on working on me

26 06 2009

Lord,

This morning I ask that you keep on working on me. 

You know my heart. 

You know my needs. 

You know who I am better than anyone. 

This morning I ask that you…

Work on me. 

Mold me. 

Hold me.

Help me. 

Guide me. 

Teach me. 

And, humbly i ask that You use me where ever I am able to be of use.

Where ever You need me.

I pray that if You choose to use me that I don’t stumble and fall, but if I do you allow me to start this prayer over once again.

Lord,

This morning I ask that you keep on working on me. 

Lord,  You know my heart.

Lord, You know my neeeds





Is this the answer I really wanted…

22 06 2009

I really am not sure if the answer I got the other day was the answer I was looking for.  In fact, I am not sure I was looking forward to any answer.  I am not sure that I was suppose to get an answer.  I was suppose to step up and point out a wrong in the most loving and understanding way possible… but

When you see a friend having coffee multiple times at a coffee shop with someone other than his wife, and realize that you have to say something – it is never easy. 

When you set up a meeting and prepare all week for it only to see them again in the coffee shop the day before – it is never easy. 

When you finally meet face-to-face to talk through what you have seen – it is never easy.

When you start a conversation with a friend that you think is going to be very difficult – only to find out it is extremely difficult – it is never easy.

When both of us start out the conversation saying “I wanted to talk to you…” – it is never easy.

When you hear your friend say that he has filed for divorce – it is never easy.

When you hear about the problems that are actually not entirely my friend’s part, but my other friend’s issues (his wife) – it is never easy.

When you hear about life in his household for the past 1.5 years – it is never easy.

When you think about two young women (their daughters) and their tender and fragile hearts – it is never easy.

When our open conversation that afternoon leads to additional conversations between my two friends – conversations that are honest and raw – it is never easy.

Sorry about the lack of details, I know that these are just the highlights.  Sometimes I hate being in the right/wrong place at the right/wrong time.  Sometimes I would prefer to ignore issues like this and back away rather than asking the difficult question, “Why?”

I sought out good great guidance that helped me through this conversation and the emails that followed.  I needed it – and God knew that.  He also knows what they need – and they need your prayers.

Please pray for my friends because this is not easy.





Cheaters – tell me it isn’t so…

9 06 2009

This is one of those – what would you do kinda questions.

Quick background – I saw a friend of our family yesterday having coffee in the AM with another women. He is married. It appeared as if she is also. I say hi. He introduces me to the young women as a friend and we chat a couple of minutes. Something doesn’t sit right with me, but I move on.

Today – I see him again with the same women. This time it appears as if they are leaving the coffee shop together (separate cars though). They do not see me. After watching from the coffee shop window, I see him lean into her car with the door open. Then a minute or so later he then closes the door and she rolls down the window. He leans in again and appears to give her a kiss. Following that, she takes off and he jumps into his car and leaves.

Ugh… this has put me in a weird position… should I talk with him? Not get involved? See if they go there again tomorrow? I heard a sermon the other day by Pete Wilson at Cross Point titled hope in your marriage – send that as a quick note? Send him a note to tell him I saw him.

This is really eating me up.





Soccer is a contact sport

8 06 2009

soccer red card

 

So, here is my thought.  Once a person hits a certain age, say 40ish, you should not try and keep up with the younger generations (20ish).  For example – I love soccer.  I love to watch soccer…coach soccer, and play soccer.  The problem – my knees hate to play soccer.  

What do I do – play soccer and re-injure my knee. 

I rest it. 

I rest it some more. 

I head back out last night for some play against the young guys, that after a 4 month layover.  What happens – the knee holds up great but i get hit in the chest (red card if you ask me) – and now I have bruised ribs.  Recovery time – 3 to 4 weeks. 

No contact sports for me.

It is no fun getting older.





I surrender…

4 06 2009

As I said yesterday… alot of thinking going on in this head of mine.  With that said, my thought for the day is related to surrender.  Turning off my self reliance, and trust God more.  Talk about hard. 

Do I do this all the time – nope…

Do I do this some of the time – yes…

When was the last time that I can honestly say I turned all of my problem over to God – when dad got cancer.  Actually a couple of months after he was diagnosed.  When God dad got cancer last year I was finally at ease when I prayed to God and said basically, “God, I cannot do this alone anymore. I surrender it all to you. I leave it in your hands. ” Not those exact words – but the most important for me was – “I cannot do this alone anymore…”

To this day I realize I cannot do it alone.

I try…

but I can’t…





4 S’s that will carry you through your life

3 06 2009

I have been listening to alot of podcast sermons lately, and the following came out of one of those podcast by Pete Wilson.  This isn’t exactly what Pete said, but it is what I pulled from it.  Pete said there is no magical formula to know what’s God will for your life, but if you do the following things you can’t go wrong… Simply but true.

  • Seek scripture
  • Speak to God
  • Surround yourself with Christian community and others you want to be like (not just Christians).
  • Surrender yourself

Alot of thinking lately is going on.  Alot of talking with God – or should I one way conversations with God.  Alot of stumbles.  It is hard to seperate my will from God’s will in my life.  It is hard to know when God is leading me and I am leading myself.  We all want what is best in our life – so does God.  The challenge we all face is to understand – when there are bad things going on in my life – and there will be bad things – God is using those things to better me.  Bad things that in my life that I learn to grow through.  I learn to trust Him more.  I learn to be less self-reliant.

Alot of rambles today…sorry about that.