Wow… sorry for the delay in writing and updating. It seems like life has to accelerate faster than I can keep up before I decide to sit down and write anything these days. There are times when I have every intention of writing and then life gets in the way, or I just need to sit back and relax for a minute. Anyway, enough excuses. I will write from time to time, but mostly likely not every day. My promise going forward – to be inconsistent.
With that said, life has been coming at me from all sides. So much so that I am just heading through life right now and can only see is what is right in front of me. The things in a distance – well they are a blur.
A lot is changing around me – I have friends who are talking about health problems, financial problems, family problems.
I have two daughters who are growing up faster than I want (I still want to hold them close to me – wishing they were 10 again). I have two daughters who want to change the world – one through medicine, and the other through an NGO. I have a daughter who broke up with her boyfriend, and continues to hide the pain.
I have a wife who continues to move through life and criticizes Christ and anything Christian, but is amazing in so many other ways (thus the need for constant prayers for her and me.)
I have a friend – Half/caf (now no/caf) – who is going through life and trying to figure out what’s next – open a coffee shop, change the world, change a life? Who knows, but isn’t it fun to explore, discover, and exam life?
Then there is me. I want to do so much, but I am hesitating. I think of it this way – it is one thing to plan for the future, it is another to live for the future. Right now, I feel like I am planning for the future, but going nowhere. If I was living for the future, things would be moving. I don’t know. Maybe this time is needed. But I feel disconnected from my plans and the people who were once close to me, and I’m really not sure why.
For example, “T” down the street is top of the list of people I feel disconnected to. I really don’t know where to go with this friendship. He has seemed distant for awhile now, I know a lot is going on, but every effort to reach out yields a smile and “I am fine.” I often make the mistake of saying too much, or trying too hard to help, so I am making an effort to back away, and let it go.
So with that said, I ask that you pray for me. I ask that your prays focus on clarity and anything else you feel moved to pray for. In addition, I ask that you pray for the following people who continue to need some Godly touches (feel free to add to the list):
Alece R (divorce)
Scott W (life and divorce)
Linda D (divorce, and life)
Cheri G (life, son’s health problems, and mom passing away)
Shanelle V (uncle passed away September 2011)
Jack H (continued struggles with his relationship with his wife, job and another baby)
Peggy F (her son has cancer)
A and T (relationship)
Susan E and her dad (dad has kidney cancer and she just adopted a little child from China)
Sheila C and her daughter (daughter’s health issues, and commute to and from Mayo)
Bob H (mom died this year (2011))
Eric W (for strength, and exceptional leadership)
Eric W’s extended family – specifically his wife and dad have health issues
Monica (life – give her clearness of mind to make the right decisions)
Carrie C (figure out the next phase in her life)
Take care, and let me know if I can pray for you.